The Moments After "My first post"


To be honest, I should write my native language "the answer post (this)", but the past post (my first post) was writng as English, so I go on writing as English.


Yes, I did not write about after the monent of "my first post". Surprisingly, a lot of time passed since I posted it on Most people(?) are always waiting the answer post, so I will write and currently my status too. 


At first, after the final test, I always thought about my relationship. Actually, it was my first experience that think about love with someone, so I really did not know how to do it. I was confindent that not only made out his thoughts and also my thought too. At the same time, I also did not assured that I could be happy with him during the long-distance relationship. I already said in the past post that I knew our relationship will busy without him because of my study abroad. Yes, he did not. I guess he think the neiborhood (me) will live next year at that moment. Looking back, it was not fair. I knew what will happen in the future but he did not at that moment. But... I could not say to him.


In Mid-March 2020, I left from the dorm without last greeting to him. Finally, I could not say "Hi" to him during my life in dorm. I did not have no confident. I moved to a temporary apartment in the same city because I had some tasks left. I needed to finish all tasks before study abroading. I spent time in 2 weeks and thought good idea for him. A few days later, I decided to write a letter to him.


It was for the first time in a while, so I spent long long long time to write a letter. I do not send a message on LINE or social medias so much, so It was not used to it for me. At the same time, I also need to prepare a dress for attend a small graduation party. Ocationally, I thought the best letter while chose a dress. The day before the graduation party day, I completely finish to write a letter. 


At this day in midnight, I went to the dorm for delivering my letter to him.  I put his post though  I did not have no confident to deliver him directly.


That day was the final day that I went to the dorm. I felt very sad and want to go back, but steel my heart for my future. 


Honestly, I did not remember what I wrote on the letter. One thing that I could remember is wrote my email address and full name on the last.


A few days later, I came back my hometown. I was a relief that could came back safely before the prime minister in Japan anncounces the state of emergency. I checked email when I found a message from someone. It was from him. I surprised. I responsed quickly and we shared LINE account. Now we are friends... but I have been in much contact each other, but if one of both get or face the problem, we can send something and contact each other. Maybe, I guess it was the best it could be.


Now, I am in America. I am a student in college and studying computer science. My currently status is busy because I need to prepare to the next ACT test and Duolingo English test for trasnsferring.


Someday, I hope we are see somewhere again directly. Someday.



My first post - from my past post on February 12, 2020,


Early, I will graduate from an English school together with a study abroad institution. 

I entered this school 1 year ago.

Now, I am learning English to study abroad while preparing to study abroad such as appreciation, making a credit card, and issuing a Visa. 

Everyday all things are very hard, but sometimes happening happy things. Everyday my teachers give me a lot of homework, I should take it hard.

Now this routine continues, I don't still used to doing homework.

But, this everyday and routine will come to an end. When I thought about it, my feelings were sad.


I'm living in a city that is far away from my hometown. I'm living alone, but I'm excited about my life today.

Recently, my neighborhood is a man and also a student approaching me, but I should move to this city, so I get worried.

I don't know what answer to make it. I know that if I answer 'Yes',  to him, he will be happy and our relationship is beginning at the moment,

but I must live in my dormitory for only about 1 month and 2 weeks. Our relationship becomes a long-distance romance.

If he and I want to meet after I come back my home town, I can do it. However, I can not keep living in my home country by August because I'm going to America to study abroad.

I know that If I accept his approach, I should want a long, very long, far long romance. 


I know it, so I don't want to make a boyfriend because too poor.

Yesterday, 1 a.m., he called to his friend about me. He talked seriously about his relationship, and consulted on what to do.

He is a kind person, when I came to a dorm, he talked to me at first. I don't forget this moment, and I remembered that I'm glad his action.

But, we have never talk once at that time. Because I don't know what to come in contact with him.

And I went to a girls high school and one of school rules was do not have a boyfriend, because my school was also a mission school that means like a christian school.

I could not making a boyfriend, but I didn't care about it. Actually, I don't interested in making a boyfriend now,

but when I hear his thoughts over the walls, I always care.


I'm writing this post in my dorm, does he thinking about me over the walls?

...Maybe, today, an event will happen, I’m ready for it and I'm thinking what to do.


That's my life the present, my "homework" is piling up now.



アメリカ留学初心者のためのコミカレの選び方と編入方法 2021 ver.























































・コミカレでクラスとった後でも延期は可能・ただし大学にも対応は様々(" I would like to defer from college." といえば通じる)











で、何がどうなってるんだとそこんとこ詳しくいいますと、私はアメリ東海岸のコミカレに在学しているのですが、親の収入(母子家庭)がコロナで減っていることや、まだ奨学金を得ていなかったことが原因で、アドバイザーと話して延期(deferment)になりました。ただ、これは『コロナ』という理由で通ったもので、こんなご時世でなければ『ただ休みたい』という理由では通りません。また『お金がない』という理由だと即強制送還+ visa剥奪ですので結構丁寧に扱わなければならないこともメンションしておきます。場合によってはこれを"ギャップイヤー"(A Gap Year)と呼びます。